Wow, it continues to amaze me how much can occur in 24 hours. Well I havnt thought this post out at all, but here goes. Last night, as I prepared to go to sleep I thought, heck, let's read somes blogs. After reading some Simple Dude I had the urge to read Her blog (bad idea). After skimming a few things I came across a post I found slightly interesting. It was about her social life etc.. It started about how she had been dating some asshole she had "never loved". Now I realize I'm being like her in talking about her, and I'm sure humoring her by letting it affect me. But it crushed me.
I thought all of this stuff had blown over and I was done, but reading that and the following things was.... Heartbreaking? I dunno, I don't have a heart actually.
It's hard for me to express the emotions I felt and am feeling.
I'll come back to it sometime..
In all thruth. I've been waiting for her to say that, for some time. She didn't love me, as she either realized or stated for her own benefit. This is why I ended it originally, so she could find someone she TRUELY loves. I hadn't anticipated I'd be ensnared in the process, best laid plans..
I'll never be able to move on as quickly as her, but I'm getting there. I need to find someone who's different from the rest. And who doesn't just throw the word "Love" around. It'll take some time, but patience is easier for lazy people (does that make sense? I did to me..).