Yesterday was better, and today was.. Decent.
Nature helped me get my mind off it all, helped me realize how rediculous it is that I can't get over this. When she did so in a few days..
Perhaps I can't get over this as fast is because no one really knows how to help, seeing as she was the only person I opened up to, well.. Only person that listened.
I've come to realize that I like being lonely, it let's me think and write.
I got frostbite, but didn't feel it. I don't feel much anymore haha.
But at least I don't cry any longer, and I'm touched by those who are trying to help. But as ive always wanted, I want them to be there for her. I don't deserve their caring. All I need us to have ambition back in my life. I don't need esteem or happiness. Just the desire to move on.