What an eventful week, band practices every day, a performance today, six tests, i certainly never ran out of things to do. As for the concert we just had tonight, id say it was a mild success. There were plenty of errors, and our teacher was... Fuming, but the parents seemed to enjoy it. And what parent doesn't love seeing there kid make music?....
I was jovial and laughable afterward, but i still don't feel like i fit in with that group of people. Ill just suck it up though, for now, im quite adept at complaining about frivolous things.
I was talking to one of my closest (not very close anymore) friends earlier that day as we walked by Her, i supposed he felt inclined to bring her up because of this. Anyways, he told me all about how he was still friends with her just because her other friends forced him to or something. Which, im sorry, but thats alot of bull.
I love this friend, but i know how he acts around her, ive seen their conversations, he's even said some pretty mean stuff about me to her. Which i understand, everyone wants to be friends with the attractive girl who talks about sex. This has kind of been one of the things that been getting to me lately, all my friends are friends with her. Now many people are in similar situations, but ive seen some of the things they've said about me to her, and it just makes me think.. Are these people really my friends?
I wont tell them these thoughts, it'd just upset everyone.
Something else that's been on my mind, these past two weeks have been really odd. Perhaps its just that ive been so busy, but it feels like im in a really crazy dream, and i cant wake up. Maybe i just need more sleep, or maybe......... Im in Inception..
Everyone as of late seems to regard me the same way they would a........ Ugly Duckling? I couldnt really come up with a good analogy, but im just treated like an outsider. Which i usually am, but now it just feels... unusual.
We'll see what happens.
u make a good point that i'd wish i'd asked myself earlier,ur so rite
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