Monday, February 7, 2011

Monday funday?

Today was a very interesting day, I was asked if I was high 3 times, and if I was gay about 4 times, by complete strangers, to all of which I promptly Lol'd and was on my way. I'm not very self concious of my appearence, and I don't do drugs (aside from from excessive amounts of Nyquil). At lunch I spent some time with friends and was generally myself, however, I felt incredibly out if place for some odd reason. And I realized I was hanging out with closed doors, in a sense. None of them really cared for my real personality (well.. Most of them), and were only fond of the facade I put on every day to fit in.
I was suddenly at a loss, and didn't know who I was, acting especially weird. I spent the next period in a daze, attempting to figure myself out, I was obviously overreacting, but I felt oddly alone. I have close to no one to confide in.
By band class I just acted calm and collected, and had a nice chat with some of the few friends who seem as though they know and are accepting of the ME that once was, and is trying to re-emerge.
I'm a bit lost, and very preoccupied. Over what is really not a huge deal, but my brain amplifies things like this. We'll see what happens tomorow.

2 comments:

  1. ur not overthinking, i get the feeling.luv tht u hav words 4 it keep writing
    -echo

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  2. I know how you feel after going through my latest break up and falling outs with friends I feel lost as a person! But I think itll come...

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