Late nights

Good Lord, I'm tired. But I need to let some thoughts out before they get lost in the folds of my brain.
I had a deep talk with a friend last night and pretty much told him everything that I've posted on here, but in more detail. He had some good advice, but I don't really feel like he understood what I was trying to tell him. And I don't blame him, he's not used to anything but happy. Which is good, but I just wanted someone to converse to about it all. I'm just really tired of being sad, I'm losing friends over it and I've no reason to to feel this way anymore. But everytime I think of something fun or happy, my brain has some sarcastic comeback that leaves me feeling just as bad. I don't need someone to feel bad for me, just someone to talk to about it. And not run away. Alot of people say I need to please myself and stop trying to make others happy. But I feel like that's part of me, helping others. But hell, maybe simple dude is right and I should get laid. Hah. Well I'm not really sad.... Just a bit lonely. But I suppose that's better than being sad AND lonely.
Goodnight.