No Hard Feelings

My, what a week it's already turned Out to be, not to mention we celebrated my favorite holiday....... PI DAY!!!! Heck yeah.
So let me fill in the gap between the past and present that has occurred since my last real post.
And..... I'm drawing a blank.
That normally means it was just ok, and my brain was to lazy to remember it.
We had our first and only Wind Symphony concert, which went over alright. I left early with some friends to party (which means we blasted indie music and spent all our money at Panda Express).
Well, if I remember more I'll post about it, I'm positive there was.
Moving on, recently, as in this past month, I've talked to one of my few friends I can have a real conversation with. She has an absurd amount of patience for me, which I am glad of. We bitch to each other and give each other life help constantly, and she finally convinced me to just pretend to be happy, but put a huge effort into it. Because, she said, you'll find you'reself actually in a better mood by the end of the day. Now, I see the logic, this could potentially work, so I tried it. For two whole weeks I was nothing but smiles (more or less), but each day I went home feeling shittier than the last, I felt like I was lying to everyone.
I couldn't be myself, or another person around my friends. So I gave it up. No one noticed.
But then, this friend (same one from earlier) told my that someone liked me. And I was like, BALLS. But I thought, perhaps I could get to know her? I brought this up with the friend, and she prompty vetoed the idea. Regardless I decided to talk to the girl. As it turned out, she was actually quite cool. She was different, in an odd way. So while maintain the guise of not knowing she liked me, I talked to her. We had some nice conversations to he truthful, not to mention a super romantic hug. But everything we did she'd tell my friend, who accused me of leading her on. I eventually came to the conclusion that I was just going to hurt the poor girl, but I couldn't end it because she didn't know that I knew. So I refrained from talking to her excessively. I watched as she slowly became more and more dejected. Until she got over it. It was awful.
Now I don't normally do this because this is MY brain, but I feel like I should just talk to her, explain it all, and give her a reason, so she's not questioning herself. Would this do any good, or should I just let the situation go, I have an uncontrollable urge to rectify things... Don't get used to me asking questions.

FINALLY.
Im back, hold your applause please.
After pretty much a month of little to no internet connection, i have returned!
HOORAY for the Internets!
I had just returned from a week long ski trip with some friends (Snowboarding trip really), and was super excited to get home and blog about it all.
Everything booted up as usual, my sister's stupid hotmail popup came up, and i opened up a browser.
Them what to my wondering eyes should appear?................. Some computer gibberish about how the internet was not working. This has happened before, so i did the usual turn the router off and on, shake the computer up a bit, restart the entire thing, danced. None of it worked, which i determined was the fault of the router, which was no longer working.
So i walked into the kitchen and gave my dad the

Face.

To which he slowly went to take a look, and came to the same conclusion as i.
Now not wanting to waste any money he ordered the new router with the slowest possible shipping, of all time.
I could have rode my bike to Ohio and back before it got here. (maybe).
Anyways, i have alot to blog about and respond to, so, ill be doing that.
Say a prayer for the Japanese please.